I can remember that type of fear. Its funny that this came up. My wife is in Florida this week and I can remember a time when it would have scared the crap out of me to be alone. Thanks to AA, I am recovered now and am free of that fear. Completely at ease by myself. A real blessing. Hope you do alright. You have sober people to hang with? A recovery program? Worst place for a drunk to be is alone in their own head if you ask me.