Because a couple of months ago I quit for the first time and I only made it 40 days.. and I can't believe I made it more than like three.... The only reason I made it that time was because it just worked out that I didn;t hve access to them and cut ties with the couple of people I did...but its so engrained in everything that I do that I just don't think I can successfully stay of them. And in the past few weeks I have had such bad cravings that like even when I have done a lot I am still fiending like crazy for more... And I have wiped out all money.. because I couldn't even fight the urges when I was already high.