SAD..... seasonal affective disorder. Means as the days shorten, one will experience more depression.
I don't seem to be affected by SAD...... my depression is an equal opportunity destroyer
I know that some ppl who are affected by SAD use light therapy. There are special lamps designed to produce the proper light to help with SAD.
Having the first thought of your day "I wish I were dead' cries out to me... doctor! Are you seeing a psychiatrist? I bet that appropriate meds could help with seasonal disorders.
Keep coming here and posting! It really helps.
Good luck, Evanna!