I dont know what its like where you guys are but here in the UK its the start of winter. With the dark nights and cold days come the winter blues.
I can feel the fight not to slip into overwhelming depression starting already. The struggle to get out of bed before my son comes home from school, to attend to basic hygeine, to the house, to be with my family, the 1st thought of the day 'i wish i was dead'.
What is it with winter? Is this just winter blues or is it depression? Is it normal? I know its normal for me cos its been this way for as far back as i can remember. Tbh, i struggle a little in summer too but its better enough for me to convince myself each time that i am finally recovering from whatever it is that i struggle with. Then bang, winter again and it the same as the winter before.
Maybe this winter will be different. Perhaps i am getting ahead of myself a little here. Its only October and i am already in Febuary. :arg:
