Originally Posted by
tjp613 
There's a difference between being compassionate and wanting to fix everything for him and make it all better.
You can have compassion at any distance. Compassion is good! Compassion is non-judgement and acceptance. Compassion says, "Hey, I know what its like to be human."
This is what I need to keep doing, thank you. Everything I'm feeling or have felt seems to somehow overlap into one another and it's blurred sometimes. He's leaving tonight and he doesn't know it yet but once he's gone, the locks are getting changed. I still don't know what he's going to do, he's going to his Mom's and looking into a facility near there. I also found out he took a family member's Vicodin from a bottle left out. with everything I've already been through, I certainly don't need any justification for ending the relationship but it just strengthens my convictions.
Anger
Disgust
Betrayal
Hurt
Compassion
That's what I feel but the hurt is getting just a tiny bit less each day and that has to be a good sign.
Thanks everyone for your support up 'til now. It has helped alot.