BOT, I've been reading SR for a while and after being able to relate to your post, I decided to finally make my own account, and seek help. I hope you will continue to post about your struggles and successes on here as I and many others, im sure, really look forward to going through the recovery process with you. Please don't think you're fighting temptation alone. You're in the right place- there are many of us that are fighting a similar battle alongside yours.