I wish you strength and the power needed to experience this Wake Up.
My "aunt - in - law" is a "Survivor", I'm not sure of what kind of cancer but she throws herself into helping others deal with the news, the treatments, the new life etc.. after.
Sounded an awful lot like how we do with our alcoholism. Perhaps you could look them up and reach out to them and get some ESH ?
Might even be someone in the program too. My sponsor had prostate cancer two years ago and he relied upon the experience of several men in our network to help him through.
God Bless.