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Originally Posted by shutterbug I was just wondering about your opinion. I've had 3 sessions with my phychologist thus far and this issue is kinda near the bottom of my list of problems to deal with, but I will ask him about it eventually. I was just curious. This is stuff is all kinda new to me (well in the last couple of months anyway) and I have my first appointment with my phychiatrist in Oct. (other than the one I saw while in the hospital a few weeks ago).
I guess, I'm a little bit of a hypocondriac about all these mental health issues. I'm kinda in shock about everythink I've learned about myself lately, that I guess I'm wondering what else is there that I'm not aware of.
Hope you are still doing well with everything. Keep us posted on your progress. Will ya? |
id encourage you to talk to him/her about it. im the LAST person you want giving my opinion on a mental illness. haha. i can understand the feeling of wondering what im not aware of ... it can be scary once you realize you have a mental illness. because then you think, hey, maybe i have all these other mental illnesses too! for me, before i really got into it with my psychologist, i thought i had every mental illness under the sun. because i was confused about what was going on with me. then we really sorted things out and got to the bottom of things.
i have suffered with a lot of paranoia and feelings of bugs crawling on me. also a lot of aggression. my first uneducated thought was that i was schizo or just plain nuts. i also have the ocd which was already diagnosed. and i would dissociate a lot which hadnt been diagnosed yet. i did not even see the dissociation as a problem because i had lived with it so long it just became the way i lived i guess.
so, with her help and new meds i am feeling better. we decided the paranoia and bugs crawling sensation and some of the aggression was from past meth use. and theres a pill that can help that (very small dose mind you). then from trauma ive got more aggression and paranoia, but its aggravated by the meth use. weird, but it explains a lot. dissociation, i hadnt even thought about. i just though i was REALLY weird and crazy. that is from trauma. but now that ive talked about it and got some meds i can see myself noticing my weird behaviors and working through them. when i try to go to a fantasy world i now have a sort of ... i dont know ... mechanism that helps me realize that thats not real. not sure how to explain that. and the ocd i already had diagnosed. and with the meds im on for it i am doing GREAT! of course i still have some odd rituals i go through, but compared to before i can see an improvement.
i understand about how ocd is your least concern. my uneducated opinion is that perhaps your compulsive behavior is a way to relieve your stress over another issue? however, many of my rituals and behaviors from ocd function to relieve stress. although they just cause me more stress because then the obsession kicks in. id say, when you are ready, discuss it with your doctor. dont rush yourself, take it slow. i also have a history of mutilating and some sort of eating disorder weird thing. those things started way back almost before junior high. i think they had something to do with the ocd, but they became behaviors i just have to tackle now.
the way i feel about cutting and an eating disorder is this. it may be linked to an addictive personality, but for some people dealing with these issues the same as an addiction to drugs and alcohol does not work. you HAVE to eat food, and sometimes you cannot avoid getting a cut or a scratch. there are many little coping mechanisms ive found to deal with these things. dont get me wrong, these two things are issues i really struggle with still. for every little problem i believe there is a unique way to tackle it. especially if you are mentally ill like me. it takes a lot of creativity, patience, and listening to whats right for YOU. not a miracle fix that someone tells you will work.
people have told me that i shouldnt take meds, well, i self destruct if im not on meds. i use a bunch of different things to keep myself well and theres nothing wrong with that. when i start feeling like a hypochondriac i just try to rationalize my feelings and then talk to my doctor about it. and sometimes what im feeling is relative to my illnesses!
hang in there shutterbug! hope ive said something that has helped!
hugs,
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