I to had a lot of reservations and I also had spent so many years in & out of AA that I really thought I was the one they talked about in how it works. Some of us are constitutionally incapable of being honest with themselves. I know today that was just another excuse in my long list of them.
When I started looking at alcohol as a poison I was putting into my body, instead of it being a solution to my problems something changed. Also couple that with getting a sponsor, doing the steps & service work, and most importantly finding a HP to take the reigns.
Anyway this is just my ES&H. Have a great night all!