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Positive self talk and learning to pace oneself and accepting my limitations are things I am working on. I do affirmations practically everyday and try not to miss a day of journalling. I long for the day when I shall be healthy enough to return to work. When I think of all the potential earnings I have lost over the past 3 years due to illness, I shake my head and sigh. Some of my symptoms of my mental illness cause me to endure slowing of speech and motor ability and at times I tremble. These things tend to make other people wary of me so finding sober friendships is difficult. Not that it has ever been easy for me to make friends as I am very nervous in social situations. I also believe that my anxiety symptoms tends to kick start alcohol cravings as the anxiety of both mimick eachother. I use to use alcohol to treat my hypervigalence and now I find my hypervigalence and tendancy to dissociate threaten my sobriety. Any relapses I have had has been while dissociated. Thanks for letting me vent and whine abit. It makes me feel better.
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