|
I am not an alcoholic, but I have and do suffer from depression and the cruelty that it inflicts upon our minds. It is not a leg pain or a burn that a little pill or ointment can cure. It is a long journey of processes that is very hard and complicated. I still don't know if I will find true happiness that I will let stay with me for more than a few seconds without pushing it away because I don't want to be hurt. I know what good things are... I can appreciate the wonder and beauty that I am LUCKY to have or to see, but I can not feel inner peace and happiness that I deserve these things and that is the depression and recovery that I face. I long dark road that I walk very slowly down. I know that my journey is hard, but I also know that having addictions that complicate the depression is a road that is also hard and even harder. More often the people here are the most supportive because they have also been where you are with the feelings that you feel and they will help you feel that you are not alone. We may be words on a computer, but there is a loving heart typing those words. You are not alone!!!!
You will be free as I hope to also be free.
|