For those of us who battle both addiction and mental illness the journey is indeed enormously hard. I find now that I work so hard at sobriety, I don't reap it's benefits as easily as others. While I watch others regain thier lives, family and friends and even embark on new adventures in thier sobriety I still struggle just to manage to perform the simplest fuctions of daily living and keep my head above water. Attempts to take on tasks outside of the most basic self care end up setting me back and avoidance of yet another hospital admission is the best I can manage. It is indeed a frustrating battle that I can not give up. There is no alternative but to keep trying. Encouragement for those such as I is oh so much required as we take yet another step on the slippery slope of recovery.
