im so sad right now i cant stand it my house is so quiet and empty feeling tuesday i took my oldest to rehab center and we got to visist my son for an hour it is better then nothing but i can only see him once a week until i go to court again on october 4th i havent told my family yet cuz of guilt for losing him or somthing i am not sure what it is but i cant seem to tell them yet but i dont like keeping secrets either
this whole thing i sleep for a few hours wake up from horrible horrible dream cant sleep and then when i eat nothing stays down the depression i am feeling is so overwhelming from losing my son for no cause to the state is a horrible feeling
i saw the family he is with they barely speak english they put him on a bottle again which too me took me forever to wean him since he is special needs
if u give him too much stimulatiuon like putting him on your shoulder he gets out of control too i saw the foster parents doing this to him and my son was looking at me and his sister trying to reach for us
he was also scheduled for an evalution today for autistism and since the fostor family didnt think it was that important they rescheduled it after taking me months to get his first evalution started
im terribly confussed why he is even there cuz the report that they supposed to have was untrue and didnt have a police report to go along with it and on the dates i wasnt even in the city i live in when it happened either
IM DUMBFOUNDED BY ALL OF IT
THANKS MISTEE
