Sometimes I wonder if I had just grown dependent on alcohol out of bad coping mechanisms, and if it's something I could correct.
A few years before I quit, before I entered what was the final phase of all out drinking for me, I wondered this too - I tried, very hard, to 'correct' what I hoped was a bad habit.
I couldn't.
I dunno, but I'm pretty sure you've tried too, Pigtails?
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