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shutterbug · 09-05-2004, 10:29 PM

Thanks live for being here for me through all of this. I'm in such a fog. I don't even know what I'm thinking or what I'm doing.

I'm usually a slow decision maker, but lately "slow" has been an understatement. Even simple questions like "Do you want to stay at your sisters another day or two, or do you want to go home," have me confused. I really am suprized that I am coherant enough to communicate on here. I guess my HP knows how much I need this right now so he is making sure I can type.

I haven't brushed my teeth in more than a week - YUCK!! I haven't brushed my hair in a 5 or 6 days, so it very tangled and is just up in a clip on my head...At least I have on clean clothes and had a bath Friday. Life is hard right now. Life is confusing right now. I was having suicidal thoughts last night. No plan...just thoughts of wishing I wasn't here any more and not wanting to be this zombie who doesn't know what to do with herself and is just surviving.

Prayers, lots of prayers please.

:crying:

09-05-2004, 10:29 PM	#5 (permalink)
shutterbug A picture's worth a 1000 words Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: With any luck, I'm lost in a view finder Posts: 2,947 Blog Entries: 5	Thanks live for being here for me through all of this. I'm in such a fog. I don't even know what I'm thinking or what I'm doing. I'm usually a slow decision maker, but lately "slow" has been an understatement. Even simple questions like "Do you want to stay at your sisters another day or two, or do you want to go home," have me confused. I really am suprized that I am coherant enough to communicate on here. I guess my HP knows how much I need this right now so he is making sure I can type. I haven't brushed my teeth in more than a week - YUCK!! I haven't brushed my hair in a 5 or 6 days, so it very tangled and is just up in a clip on my head...At least I have on clean clothes and had a bath Friday. Life is hard right now. Life is confusing right now. I was having suicidal thoughts last night. No plan...just thoughts of wishing I wasn't here any more and not wanting to be this zombie who doesn't know what to do with herself and is just surviving. Prayers, lots of prayers please. :crying: __________________ I'M FINE!! Fanatically Insecure Neuratic & Emotional Bipolar/Depression support: 1-800-950-NAMI(6264).