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Old 09-05-2004, 03:55 AM   #3 (permalink)
shutterbug
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Originally Posted by runningfree
The self esteem just doesn't happen after not happening for so long. I love my children and husband and they love me, but they can't fill the void of lost love of so many years. I too hope that the answer or feeling will come.... It is a struggle that no one should bear alone!

Keep looking...as will I
I'm jealous. I have no children; no husband - just emptyness and lonelyness. Not lonelyness from being without people to be around, because I've been spending time with friends and family to help me through this, but just lonelyness.

My alcoholic called tonight last night after I posted and I usually don't talk to him when he's drinking, but I needed that I think...or was God testing me??? We are both searching for recovery so are we meant to be there for each other as we travel through this journey...or is that just my will instead of God's???? He called when i needed him. Isn't that God working in my life?



I guess I need to pray more about it
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Last edited by shutterbug; 09-05-2004 at 07:18 PM.
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