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You all are great human beings and I am gratefull for that.vgfrvvvvvvv I keep fighting with my brain. I keep thinking "go back to AA", then I think I am not really an alcoholic (never had the DTs from not drinking, can go a long time without drinking, don't feel obsessed about it) and I am not a drug addict I just went through a short phase of drug use (about 6 months of physical addiction, but years of periodic abuse), but deep down, I feel wrong about the denial. When I used, I couldn't stop without detoxing, when I drank I drove, when I drank I had sex when I didn't really want to, when I drank I acted dumb. So what does it all mean? I did drink my beers this weekend, but thank god I was not feeling well enough to get drunk. Maybe next time, I think, if there is a next time...
jaz
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Practice "self-compassion". Let go of those "stupid" everyday trivial things that can bring a recovering addict to their knees. Its more important to focus on yourself and love yourself even if you do "mess-up a bit".  |