| Anxiety and Addiction...
im so lost right now.....i suffer from severe anxiety and also am an addict. i just recently graduated from a 1/2 way house, and during my time there learned that "most" of my using was to self medicate my anxiety, downers downers, downers.... well now i have 5mths clean and im seeing a shrink who has tried me on every anti-anxiety and anti-depressant. i am having a lot of side effects to all of these, zoloft, paxil, wellbutrin, buspar, trazadone, seroquel, prozac, and remeron. The problem is i have been prescribed benzo's by my last three doctors, and i have to admitt, "im an addict i can not take those" i used to take klonopin, and xanax "unperscribed" when i was younger, now i took too many and would black out (not a good time!!) but i feel that if i am refered by 3 different doc's, maybe that is what i need to be on. i could have my boyfriend hold on to them and just leave me what im perscribed, but i don't want to be babysat....i trust myself, i just don't know what else to do, im panicing everyday, and with the side effects of these med's it is hard for me to get through the day, never mind with my 7mth old daughter.....what should i do????????? i just want to calm down and not shake all the time...any suggestions? :shrug:
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