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Thanks. I would like his number. I will try anthing right now.

Although, I wish it was only severe depression. I can understand that much more and it's so much simpler. But I am bipolar. I also have manic episodes (which are really wonderful and I get a lot done, but they are few and far between.) My last manic episode was 15 days ago, and then back to the depression. I also have racing thoughts (that are also few, but I had a weird one recently that was almost violent in nature. It was like watching a violent movie in fast forward and feeling it at the same time. On the outside everthing looks normal to others, but in my head I am about to explode.)

My moods are like a roller coaster. Up then down, then way up and then way down, etc. But what I'm going through right now, is apparently what most unmedicated bipolars go through every 5-7 years - from what I understand anyway. The last time this happened to me was 1997-98, but I didn't realize what I was really going through at the time. My docs also just thought I was severly depressed because they didn't (nor did I) recognize the mania.

Anyway, I think the ONLY thing that IS going to get me through this the fact that I know now that I don't have to go through this alone like I did the last time. But I'm still scared of becoming the mean person I did last time.

Thanks for your support.