[Ann]

As a codependent, it was REALLY hard for me to turn my will and life over to the care of God. At first I would try, and I would turn it over to Him on Sunday. If, by Wednesday, I didn't see any results, I would take it back. Which meant I never really turned it over in the first place. I only loaned it to Him. And that didn't work.

Then, I would try again, and when I didn't see results I would pray "God what are you doing? When will I see change?" . And the answer was always the same..."Have patience".

When I finally learned to have patience, I could see God's work first hand, and I could understand why it had to be in His time not in my time. And I learned to trust God, and I have trusted Him ever since.

What was so difficult at the beginning, is now a wonderful gift to me. It is such a pleasure to turn everything over to God. Oh, sometimes I have to remind myself. During a recent crisis with my son, I was panicing and struggling, and it took about an hour before I remembered that I hadn't even thought about turning it over. As soon as I did, I was fine...completely and totally fine.

And I think that this has been the greatest gift of all in my recovery. God is doing a much better job with my life than I could ever dream of.