Originally Posted by
Scrubmuncher 
I have really lost my mind, I have no concept of reality and fantasy. My mind is making up its own life, horrible life.
I can''t continue with this life, seriously, I'm better off dead.
I've had that feeling many times.
The only thing i can say is, if you can't continue with this life, discard it and make another one. I've finally made a decision as to which path i'm going to take and it's a simple win or lose proposition. The odds are seemingly insurmountable but i don't care. I want and i will have. If i lose it's because i simply didn't want it enough and deserve to be a loser.
After that i might be better off dead as i can't see any other options.