It's only from second to second....
At this point of your recovery you really need to live Second to Second, not One Day at a Time, because thats Way too hard for anyone who is just starting out... Like others have suggested, seeking some help at this point would a very wise idea, We really Do Not want you to hurt your-self At all, there is NO NEED FOR THAT, When you can get help..... Please Hear Us!! My Prays are with & for you right now..........:ghug3