Originally Posted by
Scrubmuncher 
I have really lost my mind, I have no concept of reality and fantasy. My mind is making up its own life, horrible life.
I can''t continue with this life, seriously, I'm better off dead.
you're not better off dead, just better off sober.
during my final drinking days i was in a horrible panic and living in sick paranoia. it consumed every minute of every day. i was insane from all of the delusions. that went away when i quit drinking.
it takes time to heal the damage we do, but if i can do it, anyone can.
hang in there, there is a life outside of the bottle.