cantdothisalone,
I am so sorry to hear about your daughter and what you are going through. And not having any family to support you makes it 10 times more difficult...I know because I didn't get support from my family.
The weight gain has alot to do with the alcohol. And also the depression probably makes you eat to comfort yourself.
But YOU CAN DO THIS, because you are no longer alone...you have everyone here. Like you, I went to AA and I didn't like it and it just didn't work for me. Then I found SR and it works. I have only been here for a short time, but I haven't felt this good in a very long time. The support, caring and wonderful advice from all these incredibly caring people will get you through this, I'm sure. Hugs