Wow thanks to everyone for some really helpful advice. I have prayed and prayed about this and think I am at least in a calm place now, partly through keeping things in the day but also because I've figured out what I see as a rational plan of action as to how to deal with this becoming clear (through asking my HP, as I see it). That's helped a lot.
DayTrader: that's very interesting, very inspiring, and the last bit of your post is proving to be spot on for me. It's amazing how much more understanding I'm getting of my disease this time around in AA, simply by being willing, open, and finally properly talking to people.
One miracle already? As a drinker I used to isolate massively - I didn't want people around. Now, only 3 weeks in, I really and truly prefer to have company, whether at a meeting, or just friends, or failing those then at least on the phone. That's a pretty radical shift in personality, for the better, and it's happened very quickly once I've really tried with the program.
I have to continue to believe in this, it's working such miracles already, and I know this too will pass (in fact already is). Thanks to everyone again for your helpful advice.