HI Fritz, I am sorry to hear of your losses. I only have one daughter who I love dearly. And I just adore my grandson...see them at least three times a week. Can't wait for the twins...a girl and another boy. I know I give myself a pity party too often. I am really trying and I am hoping if I don't drink anymore my depression will go away. I have been a fool to think the alcohol would make things better...it only makes them worse. But as you know, it does make the loneliness and emotional pain go away for a few hours. Alcohol has a way of fooling us, but it is time that I don't get fooled anymore. I am going to try to volunteer, exercise and start going to yoga again. I need to fill my evenings and that will be a big help. I think it is typical of the alcoholic to isolate themselves, so I will have to push myself. Anyway thanks for you support.