This discussion of not wanting to start over again at this age, reminded me that when I was 24 I thought I was too old to go back to college. It took a lot of courage for me to register for that first semester - I had 2 kids (one with special needs) - but I knew in my heart that I didn't want to look back in twenty years and be a 44 year old who was wishing she had finished her degree. I was working at the time too and one of my co-workers was in her 40s still talking about going back to school. She doesn't realize what a motivator she was in my decision.
Anyway, the point is, that after reading many of the SR threads, I am starting to think that I should find the courage to leave my AH for the same reason I went to school. Its not too late even at age 50. While, I have invested 9 years in this relationship, do I really want to look back in another 5 years and regret the time I spent with a man who is incapable of a fully participating in a marriage and life?
I'm not prepared to answer that question tonight. Maybe tomorrow. Maybe never.
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