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MTB,
Wine is my vice, preferably Merlot but not too ashamed to enjoy the cheap and cheery stuff too, just so long as I could get high, didn't really matter! I had some of the worst hangovers of my life from wine! Very seldom would I blackout from just beer but I can't begin to tell you how many blackouts and passouts I've suffered from too much wine! This past year has been pure hell! I too became very aggressive and hostile when I consumed too much wine, not that I really remember it but my husband has shared the details with me! Long story short, I gave it up 43 days ago, haven't had a drink since! Was it hard??? Absolutely! Do I miss it? Yup, I still miss the initial high and the mind shutdown but I sure don't miss the hangovers, fights, blackouts, passouts, guilt, remorse, it just goes on!!!
After several attempts to quit on my own I just couldn't do it! The temptation was just too great! I now attend AA once a week and have managed to stay sober longer than I have in Years! I still stuggle, but, it's getting easier! When I am tempted, which is still quite often, I think of how much damage I caused to our relationship, I can't ever undo it, I can only try to repair it and move forward!!
You quit before, you can do it again! Do it before the alcohol ruins your relationship, job, self respect, etc....
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