I dont know-way before I even started drinking Ive experienced that sort of...Catharsis, Samadhi, whatever. I CAN/could stare at the stars in the sky, stare at a running body of water, go somewhere where Im completely surrounded by nature. At those times feel moments (of varying lengths) of...bliss,catharsis, shedding of "ego" (though so very brief most of the time), etc.
Ive been into Eastern Philosophy for a long time (and that idea of enlightenment) yet...in theory it sounds both great and boring-the lack of emotional lows (sounds great) the lack of emotional highs (sounds boring). Unless "enlightenment" is supposed to be a continuous emotional high, but then wouldnt even that get boring?
I dont know.
Good luck to you!