| Good Lord Girl...
I am glad you can be so honest about your feelings and thoughts right now.
But I also know you are being too hard on yourself.
I am a recovering alcoholic that has alot of regrets for what i have put my husband and family through, so I am familiar with what you are feeling.
2stop is right on the money...your writing is good and you present yourself very well.
There must be a reason your husband loves you so much.
Perfection should not be the goal, rather peace of mind and acceptance.
You are a human being, being human.
So go ahead and get your rage out, but then start to work on healing all that pain and loving yourself.
We are here for you and we do care.
I am also bi-polar and meds are very important to my state of mind...so
consider that as an option.
Maybe you would enjoy our womens meeting on Thurs. Evening.
It is posted in the "women in recovery forum" and in meeting times.
Check out the thread "16-steps for discovery and empowerment" also in the womens forum.
There are a few websites on it that refer to the steps and their premise.
Glad you are here, looking forward to sharing this journey of life we are all on. |