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Thank Kel,

But I can't find that strength. I have a plan, I am going to wait until it gets closer to 4, I going to give my children hugs and kisses and tell them how much that I love them and encourage them to continue to play, I going to tell them that mommy is going to rest because she is not feeling well, write a quick note to my husband telling him sorry and that I love him and I hope that one day he will be able to forgive me. Then I am going to take pills, and pray their is peace on the other side and that I will not feel any pain from the pills. I have to do this. I can't stand this pain anymore.

Originally Posted by KelKel

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I love you and truly want you to be here with us.
I know too well the suicidal thoughts you are having.

What we need to work on right now is you getting in touch with yourself and finding that love for yourself that will help you through this tough time.
You are worth it! I promise....

What are you doing today?
Make a plan to do some things just for you...take care of your fragile self.
Take a walk, notice all the small wonders around you.
Take a bath, use candles and put some salt into the water, it will cleanse your outer spirit.
Light a candle.
Write your feelings and pain down on paper and then burn the paper and send it all to the universe.
Talk to me girl, I will leave the light on and hang out @ the computer.
Let me be there for you....
I'll be waiting to hear from you.
Send me a pm if you like.