do yourbest and forget the rest! move forward andhelp yourself feel better every day...sound trite, but every day you don't drink is a big plus.
your head is clear and you have physical health...compare that to the past and you are winning...take one problem and obstacle at a time...if you can solve it, it is a big win...please keep trying to get yourself financially stable. it will create an enormous sense of peace once you accomplish a plan.
JMHO what worked for me.