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I seem to find myself in the same type of relationship continuously or relationship dynamics. Whenever I join a group, recovery or other wise, something happens and I get scapegoated. I am not putting myself in a victim mode but trying to understand. I'm not very good with group politics-I don't understand and get frightened or I fail to recognize the alpha female or male or group pecking order. It all seems very underground and shifting. I am not an aggressive person.
Don't misunderstand me,more aware or sensitive,I can't be but I'm puzzled and sad.I'm terrible with authority,only when it's the controlling,treating me without respect or in a childlike manner.I try to be assertive and get told"you're patronising,self-righteous..".When I try to speak to the people about an issue which is bothering me, I'm told "it's in my imagination..or I'm too sensitive"When do relationships get clear?
Any advice?
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