Amerce72, you sound like a strong women. I think deep down you know what is right and wrong. You did not cause your fathers alcoholism, nor can you fix it. Perhaps, if you end up deciding to severe ties, you could write to him each month, sharing with him your life details and reinforcing the fact that you love him. If he choses to write
Back, great. If not, at least you gave it all you had And won't feel bad if something happens. We are here for you babe. I can't express how much this forum has helped me, come back if only for a read each day, it will make you so much stronger and let me know if you need an ear. You will be okay.