[Paulie]

WOW -

I feel like I am reading about myself here. When I receive a compliment I think the opposite of what is being said must be true. If someone says 'oh you look nice today' I think that I really look extra bad and they are just trying to make me feel better. It has to be bad because why would someone say something nice.

I was not the caretake in my family, my oldest sister was. But the last yeasrs (since I have been sober) she has worked hard to break those habits and focus on dealing with her cancer. I have jumped in and taken over her role. I did not know this 6 monoths ago, but I know it now.