wicked

Why do they disappear?

I can tell you what my ex told me.
It starts with a six pack of beer on the way home (payday - Friday).
The craving would start for crack, he decides he can have one or two rocks and come home.
Smokes those rocks before he gets out of the neighborhood and goes back for 3 more to make it home. "no Biggie." he would tell himself.
Then, after smoking and drinking decides since he is already "in trouble" with me or his mother, he goes all out until over six hundred dollars is gone, (entire paycheck.)
He comes back on sunday morning, crying while pulling up, making excuses, making up stories about being robbed or carjacked, or just saying im sorry over and over and over.

The pattern became obvious, even though my mother in law hung on to some hope for awhile.

They disappear until the substance they use is gone, or they are out of money, and they have no place left to go. They disappear because they dont want to explain themselves or apologize. They disappear because they think they are special,

They don't call, because at the time, they dont care if you are scared or worried.
They disappear to go on a run, a long one with no disapproval.

This is what my ex told me and what i experienced.
The truth sucked, but it set me free.

Beth

Beth