I wanted to say thank you for everyone who took time to respond. I was feeling guilty over yelling at him and doubting myself. I really expected a few responses that I should be more understanding when he is hurting, or that I shouldn't have kept calling him when he hung up since that was typical alcoholic behavior.
I have a track record of being in abusive relationships and really did not see that in this man AT ALL. It is hard to accept even now but after reading these posts I do see some red flags. It would be easier if he didn't insist I was the one who was never wrong. Perhaps that is the codependent side of me, wanting to see fault in myself.
I feel much more at peace this morning. Feeling like maybe this was a blessing and even finding this forum was god directing me. Thank you again. Blessings.