Originally Posted by ste
I have a problem forgiving someone, and its not good for me. I deem myself an accepting forgiving person, this is the only forgiveness issue I have. At first I wanted to kill (yes its that bad) him, then "gave it to God" (I'm not agnostic) for his vengeance. Just wanted to see him suffer. I could rationalize its all good, because he is the one who got me in the bottle deep enough to stop, but that's not true. It's still eating me. Any insights, advice, please.
Sounds to me like you might be making your 4th step a little harder than it is. The 4th step is simply to make a searching and fearless moral inventory of yourself.
Have you tried writing Central Office in the closest metropolitan area of Russia? They may be able to set you up with someone who can correspond with you.