I couldn't agree with Marcus more. I was on the same pill counting disaster for 8 years. I always knew what happens when I would run out, but in that moment, I didn't care. I was also totally consumed and waited for pharmacies to open, etc.. It's complete insanity.
I didn't have anyone suggesting a 12 step program, or did I ever think I'd attend a meeting. After being up all night for the first 8 days, I went online, found a local meeting & went. I hated the first one, but must have heard something because I went again the following night. It's been 102 days & I go to about 6 a week. It isn't for everyone, but it helps me (and tons of other addicts) a lot. I did my own program for 30 years & that got me nowhere but broken. Now I work with a great sponsor & feel better than I have in years.
Good luck & Congrats on your 4 days.