 New To MB Please Help
Hey everyone as you probably know im new to this message board.....Ive been dealing with eating disorders all my life starting in high school with anorexia with occasional binge purge episodes and i honestly believe i was in control of my ED at this time in my life. When i moved away from home to start college my ED was put on hold by a roommate who was a little too nosy so for a year i was 10 lbs above my normal weight which was fine at the time.....then i lived with a friend that had different class schedules so i was able do my thing in privacy till i moved back in with my parents for awhile and i sustained normal eating habits for a few years. Last March I moved away again and now i find myself back into my old habits only now its much worse, its turned into cumpulsion i cant stop counting calories, i run at least 5 miles a day, if i eat more than 1200 cals i find myself purging because i feel too full....its crazy, i want to quit and i know i have a problem but i cant stop for the life of me...i dont know why i cant ask for help as much as i want to quit i cant see my life without exercising and having restrictions im just so used to this what do i do??undefined |