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Well, update on this situation..and et me tell you, a person can learn so much, transform so quickly when clean and sober...resenmenst can fade away instantly with a clear head and a willing heart....it's the truth! LOL...

I have sat and talked to my brothers girlfriend...and I turned off all judgment, turned off all...'how is this going to affect ME?" and just listened and looked at the part of her that is also a part of me..the life force, the heart....I am no longer angry or bitter or upset or fearfl..it has melted away much quicker than I let it boil up....my God..the miracles that Do occur with a clear head, with a willingness to face things head on...and with an open heart....I still struggle greatly with mood fluctutaions, insecurities, rage..but there is this 'center' within me now....I can let go easier, I can forgive quicker...I grow!! It brings tears to my eyes as I type...that I can actually be healing....I pretty much figured a year ago or so I would die..it was all over for me.....it wasn't.I just had to show up for life..I was too busy dying all those years to pay any attention to life.

This is a new breakthrough for me..to let go of so much fear and anger so quick.....it is a miracle!