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As long as there's breath there is hope...
Thats a tenant that I have adopted since I came into NA in 1988 a chronic pot smoker. I had also been a drinker and had been convicted of a felony DWI so I was attending counseling and AA meetings when I was first introduced to NA. At the time of my arrest I was recently seperated desperatley hoping to have my wife and daughter back in my life. My wife didn't come back and I was frustrated that I only got into trouble with alcohol never pot. In 1989 after trying to get things to go my way unsuccessfully I stopped attending meetings and wound up going back to drinking and smoking. In 1990 I wound up gettting arrested for a predicate Felony DWI. I was sentenced on Feb2 1991 and have been abstinant and a member of NA since.
No my wife did not come back to me. In my case the damage was allready done but by staying clean in spite of what does and doesn't turn out my way, I have managed to maintain a relationship with my daughter, and move on with my life.
No one can guarantee the outcome in your case. As addicts we all seem to want to know exactly what we have to do to achieve the desired results. Our disease tells us we will do what it takes.... but no more. As recovering addicts we learn to do the next right thing for the right reason with little expectation of the results and are more often than not pleasantly surprised and grateful for the gifts and experiences our Higher Power provides.
Let go let God... be willing and you will be awarded the peaceful knowledge that things are exactly as they should be.
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