| Self Sabotage
Hi, i'm niikki and i was wondering if there are any survivors out there who self sabotage and self destruct the minute life is running smooth and good things are coming their way.
I tend to go really well then bang when i know that something good is coming my way i go awall and do things i never dream of doing normally : ie- i get back on the drugs and do what ever i have to ,to make sure i get those drugs no matter who i hurt.... needless to say i do this due to having every thing that i loved taken from me when i was a child right through to my adult life, now other people don't take from me any more , i take from myself and i'm sick of doing this obsessive compulsory ritual to myself ...
is there anyone out there who suffers the same fate as i do ?
please let me know...
peace to you all...
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