Originally Posted by
HowManyChances 
Its so hard. I want to be strong and not give in and call him today. He wont be calling me, I honestly dont think he cares enough. That or I have cried wolf so many times on leaving him.
He's incapable of caring. He's an active addict.
After I left my EXAH, I thought my biggest problem was solved.
In reality, the problem was looking right back at me in the mirror.
For 13 more years, I picked one sick relationship after another.
I was broken inside, and kept trying to fix that broken-ness with men who were also broken inside.
Please check into Alanon or Naranon meetings in your area. There you will find face-to-face support among those who understand.
Get a copy of "Codependent No More" by Melody Beattie. "Women Who Love Too Much" by Robin Norwood is a good read too.
Keep posting and know that you are among friends.
