^Here is a link to the schedule and phone number for your local Narcotics Anonymous area, Fidget. You might want to check out their meetings. You live in the same Region that I do and I know that recovery from addiction is great here!
You might also want to check out some of the other forums here like PTSD, Substance Abuse, and Narcotics Anonymous. Also, do you have a therapist? I think that would help, too. Just let us know what you need and we'll be here for you. You CAN learn to trust yourself and others again! Wish you the best.
Love, Eddie