After months and months of struggling, I am finally getting somewhere with this! I think. Maybe? Yeah, I think so.
I'm going to list out how drinking has negatively affected my life.
On the powerless end of things, I'm reading the Big Book...something...self will...something something...gotten me nowhere...need to try something else...something...
I think drinking and me being me is like gasoline and a match. I can't run the show, and drinking (or any drug for that matter) exacerbates that wrong-headed approach to life. I can't put out this fire on my own, because I am the fire. And I'm doing no good in the world. Something else needs to put it out.
Oy, what a tangly metaphor.
Still though, SO CLOSE! Maybe.