This may sound harsh, but I think you are making excuses. I made hundreds of excuses many the same as yours--" my family won't help"--I need to work so I can pay the mortgage--everyone will reject me --know what? I was wrong. I lost my job, so I still had bills to pay, my family took me in and helped me after I admitted I had a problem and sought help. I too was on antideressants thinking that would help me get off drugs. WRONG!! I temporairily felt better, but still had teh desire to use.
Eddie Z is right. This is your life you are talking about. Nothing about your life will be right until you check in to a detox and start the process. You will not regret it.
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Dawn
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