It is time to take responsibility for yourself and not expect anyone else to do it for you. You have to want to change. You sound depressed and that is such a hopeless feeling, I know. I have been there. Go to the nearest emergency room and admit you have a problem and ask for help. Detox can be a wondeful thing. You are doing a very active constructive act by admitting you need help and cannot shake this addiction alone. In Detox, you will find both the medical and pyschological help we have all needed to begin the road to recovery.
You can do it!
