Akiki
I can understand your confusion - do you mind me asking how old you are? Reason: in my twenties (when living in Dublin!
) I was the same as you - was quite moderate in my drinking but REALLY liked wine (only) nightly and a big 'binge' and treat for me was a whole bottle. Why I know I am an alcoholic is that :
- the wine brought bad things to me - lack of energy, lack of being connected and eventualyl - because I am alcoholic - it progressed. I felt it made me relaxed, happy and was a reward - typical alcoholic symptoms!
My advice- go without it for a month. If you can and it's relatively easy you may have this problem licked. If you can't do without it I'd check out DUblin AA meetings on google as the actual REQUIREMENT for AA is a desire to stop drinking not that you are an alcoholic - self confessed or otherwise.
Good luck!! Drinking alcohol every night is bad for anyone alcoholic or not.
Cathy31
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