This is my first time on this (or any alcohol addiction) site.
I really dont know if im an alcoholic - im not interested in spirits, beer etc. however i feel i am addicted to wine.
i have a 3 year old son and my husband works nights, so almost every evening after my son goes to bed, i feel its 'me' time. i open a bottle of wine and have at least 2/3 glasses. if i skip a night and go to bed early, i cant sleep - so i say to myself - i have to drink wine - it helps me sleep!
when we go out for a meal - of course i drink wine - and another few glasses when we get home. i probibly drink wine 6 days out of 7.
i crave wine, the taste of it, how it relaxes me, the feelling of holding a wine glass, i associate it with happy feelings and thoughts.
however, i feel croggy in the morning, get in bad form easily, cant loose the 25lbs i need to and overall am getting a little bit depressed of the whole cycle.
but am i an alcoholic or a wine-aholic.
i just think, im here on my own in the evenings, after working a long day, my husband in work, my child asleep - surely i deserve something nice for myself...
i know my limit and strangely when we go out socialising i dont really drink wine - i would have a few vodka, i think because i enjoy socialising and dont use alcohol as a confidence booster - im quite happy to go out and sip a vodka or 2.
but at home on my own - i am using wine as my friend - my company?
every day i say - i'll be good and go to bed early and wont have a glass of wine - and then half and hour later - i cant help myself and pour a little glass... even one glass relaxes me... its like i use it as a little drug, im just so confused
